My Lovely Fayrouz ... I Applogize

Well ... Don't know what reminded me of you once again .....

It's been too long since I took this decision .. No more Fayrouz voice .. No more Diary maintaining ... No more sadness ... it's enough misery I am in love now !

Maybe this cloudy morning ...
Maybe the cool air
Maybe the steam lines dancing on the top of my bitter cappuccino mug ...
Maybe a walk in history ...
Maybe because I passed in front of this well planted street .. which had the trees I always loved .. but the trees are so old and had no power to hold a single green leaf ... wake up Dan' .. It's winter time and no Leaves stay on trees.
Maybe this wooden coffee shop that had this strong baking scent ... do you remeber the friendly waiter who used to work there, usually peeping at the stolen kisses you used to put on my hands! Do you think he is still there ... Maybe he missed us as well !
Finally it's this song played accidentally on this "Kedaho Kedaho" radio station that doesn't usually play this kind of music ...
I remember her famous latest song .. "وجك بيذكر بالخريف " and I repeat " بيذكر بيذكر "... It reminds It reminds ... It reminds !

Reminds me ... As she said ?? ! Is it your face that reminded me .. your face that visited my dream yesterday .. I didn't allow you to visit me .. I should have been stronger to firmly lock the door of my dream.

Or is it her voice ... It's becoming louder .. Ya leeely Ya Leeely Ya leeeil ... More Louder ... Yaaaaa ya ya yaaaa Ya leeely

My lovely singer .. You said it all "!!! شي ما بينتسى "... I do applogize I didnt talk with you for a while .. Long time passed and I didnt think of you .. I didn't allow you to whisper these cute lovely words in my ears ..
Forgive me !
I tried to make my applogy a physical action .. I went all around ... I asked every face I met trying to make it look a normal question after a friendly conversation ...

- Bet7eb Fayrouz ???
- Ta3la asmma3ak o3'neya helwa awy

Oh my lovely Voice .. I do applogize once a again ...
look like you & me are isolated somewhere in this empty shallow world.

And you my lovely small book .. with these yellow old papers ... some are torn and some are worn ! I miss the smell of your pages ... I miss the look of the erased words written with some colored pencils on your weak pages ...

I am using an electronic version now ... Sorry ... it's another curse of technology ... but don't worry I will chose a similar yellow format .. just like your yellow pages are ... ***

What started all this I don't know ?!
Is it the nostalgia to an old life ... Is It I miss you .. Maybe I miss you ... More sure I need you and I need my self back !

Although I am deep in love .. I miss something in my life ... Maybe this old scent ... This worm voice ... Your stolen kisses .. our cute walk & talk ...

** I didn't find any good yellow formates ... !! Sorry